loooooonely -,-

niiiiiiiiight! halo abis makan nih. sumpah ya nyokap kayanya lg sensi bgt, orang bener ikan mas nya pait malah gua yg disalahin. hadeeeeeh untung ada bumbu rendang. esumpah ya masa gua jatuh cintaaaaaaaaaaaaa bgt sm itu rendang. asli enak bangbangbangbaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanget deh top markotop. gua sendiri nih uhuhu ada yg mau nemenin? wk lagian sih ya ini kan uddah jam 22:06 ya guess what? cahyo. masih. main. di. rumah. temennya. phur-fck--" perfect maksud gua wkwkw jadiiiiiiiii gua malah ngautis nih di webcam fotofoto sendiri wkwk. tp hslnya burem burem gidu deh secara udah malem cahaya terang redup gitu ya bok. aku fotofoto loh sm boneka boneka kuuuuu^^ cm tiga sih sebenernya ehe ini boneka favorite soalnya. mau liat? yuk sini......





trsss skrg gua badmood parah, sumpah ya ksl gua anjjjjjjjj-_-stop. bye

Saturday

halooooooooo~ apakabar semuanya? baik baik sajakan? baik dong soalnya kan lagi bulan puasa wkwk Selamat Menunaikan Ibadah Puasa yaaa. eeeeeeeeh bosen nih gua. gaada kerjaan. mana temen temen gua pada ke korea lagi huhuhu sediiiih sepiiii kangeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeueueueueuen. mereka balik hari minggu nanti aww lama amat. semoga kalian baikbaik ya disanaa muah. nowplaying broken strings


Broken Strings

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me, now I can't feel anything

When I love you and so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking it's the voice of someone else

Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?

Oh, what are we doing?
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When it's too late, too late

Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?

But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late, too late

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
So how can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?
Oh, you know that I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again


dalem nih bok katakatanya wkwkw. ini lagu lama kok, gua liatnya pas liat majalah gogirl edisi lamaaaa taudah edisi yg mana ya lupa gua heuehueh. ngantuk nih, kalo misalnya skrg lg ga chat sm cahyo gua udah tidur kali ya ehe. malessssssssss mandi, bau? boam wakaka. eh katanya hari ini ada yg ulang tahun loooh. gua gatau sih bener apa engga tapi HappyBirthday Ghiffa dan Raka have a good one! traktir traktir yeuuu. etapi bener kan ya mereka ulang tahun? ea salah malunih gua wkwkw

boredom---Decorating Crassivas ;D

"it's raining raining ooh baby it's raining raining..." udah lama ga denger lagu Umbrella nya Rihanna wkwk masa trs pas bgt gua lg dengerin ini lagu eeeeh diluar ujan-,---kewl baned. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA gua stress taugasih. asal lutau ya niiiiih

Sekitar jam baru masuk lah abis tahfidz kan abis itu belajar biasa ya. takut gua soalnya ada ulangan BIOLOGI dan gua belom? be.la.jar wowkow udah deng tp gamasuk otak gituuuu. trs udahkan gua duduk dan gatau nyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa HARI INI BEBAS DAN GA BELAJAR DI KELAS YESYESYES kurang girang apaaacoba gitu ya ohohoho. trs akhirnya denger ceramah dolo di bawah. ada teman temanku yg ikut tari daerah loooh! mereka cantik cantik ;))) sebentar lagi mereka ke korea huhuhu hatihati di jalan ya teman temaaaan smooocha jgn lupa oleholeh :***. ooooh ternyata maksudnya di bebasin itu buat ngehias kelas yowes akhirnya ada yg beli bahan ke inter dan gua? diem aja wkwk. pas balik ke kelas, itu kelas udah porak poranda di gerecokin sm orang. yaudah gua sm devira ke bawah aja liat yg tari daerah. 

Pas ngehias kelas ampun ye sumpah itu bikin MENTAL GUA RUSAK! kenapaaaaaaaaa? sebuah benda yg tipis hampir transparan, berisi angin, lonjong, warna warni, dan yg gawat...............bisa meledak. apalagi kalo bukan balon udah deh kalo mainannya udah sm balon don't. ever. stand. close. to me. sumpah kalo engga gua bisa nangis kaya td garagara dena-___-lebay yeu tp emg gua kaya gituuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. dan mulailah kegiatan menghias Crassivas bersama kawankawan seperkelasan hahaha seperkelasan apaan coba-_-seruloooooh eheheh

Do whatever you like

terserah deh mau alesannya apa juga gua lebih milih kalem oke? don't protest if I do the same thing ;)

Bad day! I haven't do my homework and I'm too lazy to finish it-_-so what's good today? nothing. masa ya skrg gua dapet lagi ooooooooomaigat padahal gua pengen dapet awal puasa! ayodong seminggu harus selesai a a a aishiteru wkw kagalah, amin. dari hari ke hari ke hari lagi terus ke hari hari sampe hari ini gua makin benci sm yang namanya pb. kalo ada cewe yg punya cowo maniak pb pasti ngerti deh-,-tp gua ga benci garagara itu jugasih daaaaan sebenernya bukan cuma satu orang aja yg suka ngacangin gua kalo ada permainan bangsat itu tapi banyaaaaaaak deh. gmn ga kesel deh? kesel kankankankankan? biasa aja-_-oke. dan asal lutau...asal lutau ya kawan kawan ini gua lupa udah keberapa kali gua ngerefresh page twitter yang keluar malah gambar beginian


kurang kesel apacoba guaaaaaaaaa yoloh plsdeh ga twitter ga msn ga pcr ngertiin gua dikit ae napesih-___-ganapsu hidup gua *wes. ga lah gua msh mau sma, kuliah, kerja, punya suami&anak, cucu, meninggal khusnul khatimah ea. muless booook aduuuuuh atit peyut rasanya kaya gelembung2 gimana gitu hahaha gagaga rasanya kaya sakit deh gitu masa lu gatau sih? apasih sa. 

Sharing

Good evening ;) how's your day? hari ini gua puasa loooc wkw maghrib lama ya ckck ayodong adzan cepetaaan. gaada kerjaan lagi huu '3' jadi mau sharing cerita aja dulu nih. gua sih udah pernah denger cerita ini cmn tetep aja sedih boook. 


Ibuku hanya punya satu mata. Aku benci dia, dia sangat memalukan. Ia melakukan apa saja, apa saja untung membiayai kehidupan kami. Lalu suatu hari saat ada acara di sekolah, ibuku menghadiri acara tersebut. Aku sangat malu. Teganya ia berbuat seperti ini padaku?! keesokkan hari nya semua teman teman ku mencemooh dan mengejekku dengan "ibu bermata satu"

Aku berharap ibuku bisa menghilang dari dunia ini jadi aku berkata pada ibuku, "Bu, kenapa ibu cuma punya satu mata sih? ibuku cuma bikin aku jadi bahan tertawaan! kenapa ibu ga mati saja" Tak ada respon. Aku kira ia sakit hati, tapi di waktu yang sama, aku lega sudah mengatakan yang sebenarnya

Ibuku tidak marah kepadaku

Malam itu...Aku terbangun, dan pergi ke dapur untuk mengambil segelas air. Ibuku menangis disana, sangat pelan, mungkin ia takut tangisannya membangunkanku. Aku menghampirinya, tapi ia berpaling. Aku benci ibuku yang hanya menangis dengan SATU MATA. Jadi aku menasehati diriku sendiri bahwa aku akan sukses tanpa ibuku yang bermata satu itu.

Aku belajar sangat giat. Aku pergi meninggalkan ibu dan pergi ke asrama, Aku mendapat pekerjaan, dan aku menikah. Aku punya rumah sendiri. dan aku punya anak juga. Sekarang aku sudah menjadi orang yang berhasil.Aku senang disini karena disini tidak mengingatkanku pada ibuku.

Kebahagiaanku berangsur angsur, sampai seseorang yang tidak diharapkan datang menghampiriku "ha? siapa kamu? kamu SERAM! "... dia ibuku...masih dengan satu matanya. Anakku lari setelah membukakan pintu untuknya


Aku bertanya padanya, "Siapa kamu? Aku tidak kenal kamu!" aku berusaha meyakinkannya, lalu aku berteriak "Berani beraninya kau masuk kesini dan menakuti anakku?? pergi sekarang jugaa!" Lalu dengan pelan ibuku menjawab, "oh maaf, sepertinya aku salah alamat" dan dia pergi. Untung saja...ia tidak mengenaliku. Aku bersumpah tidak akan peduli kepadanya seumur hidup.


Suatu hari aku menghadiri sebuah reunian sekolah yang bertempatkan dekat dengan rumahku yang lama. Sehabis reunian aku memutuskan untuk mampir, aku buka pagar rumah yang sebenarnya sudah tidak pantas disebut rumah dan menemukan ibuku tergeletak di lantai yang dingin. Tapi aku tidak menangis setitik pun. Dia punya secarik kertas di tangannya dan itu ditujukan untukku.
Dia menulis...

Anakku,
Sepertinya hidupku sudah cukup lama. Dan...aku tidak mau mengunjungi Seoul lagi... tapi apakah permintaanku terlalu besar kalau aku hanya ingin kau mengunjungiku sekali? Ibu kangen kamu. Dan aku sangat senang mendengar kalau kamu ikut reuni di sekitar sini. Tapi aku memutuskan untuk tidak datang kesana....itu untukmu...maafkan aku yang hanya mempunyai satu mata ini, dan  aku sangat memalukan untukmu. Kamu tahu? saat kau masih sangat kecil, kau kecelakaan, dan kehilangan matamu. Sebagai ibumu, aku tidak bisa melihatmu tumbuh hanya dengan satu mata.. jadi aku mendonorkannya untukmu...aku sangat bangga kau bisa melihat seluruh dunia untukku, dengan mata itu. Aku tidak pernah marah atas apa yang sudah kau lakukan. Beberapa kali kau marah padaku. Aku beritahu diriku sendiri, 'Itu karena ia cinta padaku' aku rindu saat kamu selalu ada di dekat ibu.


Aku sudah tidak tahu ingin berkata apa. Aku memang mahluk yang sangat bodoh, sangat bodoh. Aku menangis..

sedih kan? bangeeeet uhuhuhu *lebay wkw udah ya mau buka puasa dulu ehehe byeeeee selamat buka puasa semua ;)

Insomnia? could be right...

God I'm totally tired today. gua capek ya sumpe tapiiiiiiiiiiii kenapa gua gabisa tidur? why why oooh why ngantuk niiiih uhuhu. 1:41 AM and I still got my eyes open and both hands dancing on keyboard. gua mesti ngapain coba ya biar bisa tidur emm.... counting sheep? oke itu jadul tp gua pernah nyoba ngitung domba kaya gitu. yg ada malah gua lupa gua udah ngitung domba sampe berapa-__-ehuheueh. he's already sleeping *use to be, if he isn't lying again-,-* dsr kebo iwo wkwkw gadeng canda. ohiya di pagi yg sesunyi ini Balqis sm Alfi anniv loooooooh wkwkw eaea HappyAnniversarry ya buds! loooooooooonglast. oke gua bingung mau ngomong apa lagi, secara gua tuh pendiem, kalem, talkless wakaka goblok. gimana kalo kita nyanyi ajayuk? nyanyi apa ya tapi hmmmmmmm oh yeaaa....

Sweet Dreams

Turn the lights on

Every night I rush to my bed
With hopes that maybe I'll get a chance to see you
When I close my eyes I'm going out of my head
Lost in a fairytale, can you hold my hands and be my guide?

Clouds filled with stars cover the skies
And I hope it rains, you're the perfect lullaby
What kinda dream is this?

You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)

Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your love's too good to be true
(Turn the lights on)

My guilty pleasure, I ain't going no where
Baby long as you're here I'll be floating on air
'Cause you're my

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)

I mention you when I say my prayers
I wrap you around all of my thoughts
Boy you're my temporary high

I wish that when I wake up you're there
To wrap your arms around me for real
And tell me you'll stay by side

Clouds filled with stars cover the skies
And I hope it rains, you're the perfect lullaby
What kinda dream is this?

You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)

Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your love's too good to be true
(Turn the lights on)

My guilty pleasure, I ain't going no where
Baby long as you're here I'll be floating on air
'Cause you're my

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)

Tattoo your name across my heart so it will remain
Not even death can make us part
What kind of dream is this?

You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)

Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your love's too good to be true
(Turn the lights on)

My guilty pleasure, I ain't going no where
Baby long as you're here I'll be floating on air
'Cause you're my

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you

I think I should go, I bet my mom will check my room in a few more minute. seeyaaa~

Read it carefully

When you came into the world, she held you in her arms
You thanked her by wailing like a banshee.
When you were 1 year old, she fed you and bathed you.
You thanked her by crying all night long.
When you were 2 years old, she taught you to walk.
You thanked her by running away when she called.
When you were 3 years old, she made all your meals with love.
You thanked her by tossing your plate on the floor.
When you were 4 years old, she gave you some crayons.
You thanked her by coloring the dining room table.
When you were 5 years old, she dressed you for the holidays.
You thanked her by plopping into the nearest pile of mud.
When you were 6 years old, she walked you to school.
You thanked her by screaming, "I'M NOT GOING!"
When you were 7 years old, she bought you a baseball.
You thanked her by throwing it through the next-door-neighbor's window.
When you were 8 years old, she handed you an ice cream.
You thanked her by dripping it all over your lap.
When you were 9 years old, she paid for piano lessons.
You thanked her by never even bothering to practice.
When you were 10 years old, she drove you all day, from soccer to gymnastics to one birthday party after another.
You thanked her by jumping out of the car and never looking back.
When you were 11 years old, she took you and your friends to the movies.
You thanked her by asking to sit in a different row.
When you were 12 years old, she warned you not to watch certain TV shows.
You thanked her by waiting until she left the house.

Those Teenage Years
When you were 13, she suggested some clothes that was becoming.
You thanked her by telling her she had no taste.
When you were 14, she paid for a month away at summer camp.
You thanked her by forgetting to write a single letter.
When you were 15, she came home from work, looking for a hug.
You thanked her by having your bedroom door locked.
When you were 16, she taught you how to driver her car.
You thanked her by taking it every chance you could.
When you were 17, she was expecting an important call.
You thanked her by being on the phone all night.
When you were 18, she cried at your high school graduation.
You thanked her by staying out partying until dawn.

Growing Old And Gray
When you were 19, she paid for your college tuition, drove you to campus, carried your bags.
You thanked her by saying good-bye outside the dorm so you wouldn't be embarrassed in front of your friends.
When you were 20, she asked whether you were seeing anyone.
You thanked her by saying, "It's none of your business."
When you were 21, she suggested certain careers for your future.
You thanked her by saying, "I don't want to be like you."
When you were 22, she hugged you at your college graduation.
You thanked her by asking whether she could pay for a trip to Europe.
When you were 23, she gave you furniture for your first apartment.
You thanked her by telling your friends it was ugly.
When you were 24, she met your fiancé and asked about your plans for the future.
You thanked her by glaring and growling, "Muuhh-ther, please!"
When you were 25, she helped to pay for your wedding, and she cried and told you how deeply she loved you.
You thanked her by moving halfway across the country.
When you were 30, she called with some advice on the baby.
You thanked her by telling her, "Things are different now."
When you were 40, she called to remind you of an relative's birthday.
You thanked her by saying you were "really busy right now."
When you were 50, she fell ill and needed you to take care of her.
You thanked her by reading about the burden parents become to their children.

And then, one day, she quietly
died. And everything you never did came crashing down like thunder. "Rock me baby, rock me all night long." "The hand who rocks the cradle...may rock the world".

Let us take a moment of the time just to pay tribute/show appreciation to the person called MOM though some may not say it openly to their mother. There's no substitute for her. Cherished every single moment. Though at times she may not be the best of friends, may not agree to our thoughts, she is still your mother!!! She will be there for you...to listen to your woes, your bragging, your frustrations, etc. Ask yourself.....have you put aside enough time for her, to listen to her "blues" of working in the kitchen, her tiredness??? Be tactful, loving and still show her due respect though you may have a different view from hers. Once gone, only fond memories of the past and also regrets will be left.

**DON'T TAKE FOR GRANTED THE THINGS CLOSEST TO YOUR HEART. CLING TO THEM AS U WOULD YOUR LIFE, FOR WITHOUT THEM, LIFE IS MEANINGLESS

❤❤❤MOM~